Nov 27, 2012


When I first started this blog, it was a little bit racy, a little bit sexy, a little bit about discovering and being discovered. If you've been with me for a while, you'll remember when I used to give myself "body homework" learning to get comfortable with myself and my body (and trying to get over past insecurities). That was put on pause for a long time as I got comfortable with my mental self, with my identity, my sexuality, my gender, my emotions. Everything stabilized, and I'm very grateful for that.

Today I didn't have any underwear. Literally, none. I practically have no clean clothes left. My laundry pile is three feet high and I have no time to do it. I suppose I did this morning, but I quickly hemmed up a sweater dress instead and then realized later that my undergarment drawer was empty. Oops. So I hopped out of the shower and decided "screw it, who needs panties everyday? People do it all the time!"

Note: I cannot text people when I'm in the bath for fear that they will somehow realize that I'm naked while I'm texting them. Okay? You get this? So I left the house and bumped into my neighbor; super nice, 50s, working class. She starts talking to me about this and that and her daughter and all I can think about is how awkward it is that I'm NOT WEARING UNDERWEAR and SOMEHOW SHE MUST KNOW. Except she couldn't, because normal people don't have x-ray vision, but still. It was so awkward and I couldn't follow the conversation at all.

Then, I was at work with this pretty girl named Cindy; she's around my age, really nice and her fiance is pretty awesome. She leaned in to brush a stray eyelash from under my eye behind my glasses, and she was so slow and gentle. I closed my eyes so she didn't poke me in the eyeball, and there it was, that strange, nagging feeling and an oncoming blush because all I could think about was that I wasn't wearing any underthings.

Maybe I could get used to it, in time. Maybe people do it all the time because they like this constant reminder, this heightened feeling. Maybe they like the idea that people might find out. I don't know. The heightened feeling wasn't all bad. It's was the everyday situations with everyday people that made it so awkward. If I were on a date it might've been different, but I was at work.

If I were to try it again, It probably wouldn't be with a sweater dress, and it definitely won't be tomorrow. Here's to clean laundry!

Note: Still updating the first:girl series over at Check it out to see how I fell in love for the first time and stumbled out of the closet.


  1. Hi Tabitha :)

    Just discovered your blog and I've really been enjoying what I've read.

    I have done the No Panties thing before too. However not because they all needed to be washed LOL
    You were spot on when you said...

    "they like this constant reminder, this heightened feeling"

    And for me I wouldn't say I Like the idea of people finding's more the risk of being found out that turns me on.

    Now the times I have gone out with no panties was because it was something my ex (Jess) wanted me to do. Knowing this turned her on just made it more exciting for me. There were also times we were out where she asked me to take off my panties then give them to her. This really excited me. Knowing I didn't have them on while she was in possession of them only a few feet away. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

    Anyway, Love the post and hope you have a great day. Kara XO

    1. Hi Kara! Welcome to the blog! So glad you're finding your way around and thank you for all the comments! I think I'm getting spoiled!

      I totally agree with the no panties partner dynamic. I think it would have felt completely different and sexy in that kind of a situation. You have a great day too, and I'll definitely be checking out your blog after work!

  2. lol, One must always have some clean laundry just encase the day calls for leather pants which is quite often this time of year. And if one can't wear a sweater dress without underwear what can one wear? Ponder that today ....

    1. Quite often for you, perhaps :P It's still far too warm for leather pants most days here, however there is a cold front this weekend, so it might be a good time. You're very right about the sweater dress, but I'd just hemmed it to be more tunic-y. Since I'm average/short, I like when dresses hit me mid-thigh or above because it makes my legs look long and pretty. Maybe if it were a LONGER sweater dress :D

    2. oh!! an ankle length sweater dress, that would work.

    3. You antagonize me for fun, don't you? :D I was thinking knee length, so when I bend over and pick up a massive box at work I don't have to worry about flashing anyone :P

  3. Nothing wrong with the short sweater dress and no panties!! To me the shorter the dress/skirt the naughtier and more fun it is ;)